?

Log in

No account? Create an account
Danielle's Journal

> recent entries
> calendar
> friends
> profile
> previous 20 entries

Sunday, November 11th, 2012
6:17 pm

Posted via LiveJournal app for iPhone.

(comment on this)

Tuesday, October 14th, 2003
10:32 pm - how's it gonna be?
wierd.. feels wierd to write again, it's been sooooooooo long.. god i dont' even know, and i don't really care, now i can kinda be sure no one even reads this anymore... good... i like the thought of the possibility of someone reading it, but i also feel i don't have to watch what i say AS much... life is really different right now.. i feel very very alonee.. even though i live with someone.. i know that sounds strange, but i don't feel connected to anyone anymore.. i begin where u end..

(5 comments | comment on this)

Saturday, July 19th, 2003
5:53 pm
this week-end blows - rain again- i know i haven't been here in like months and months but i'm here now... marc has fucking dial up and a dinosaur computer so i don't have the time or patience for it... everything is going well, busy busy, and about to get busier again with school - sorry that's all i have to say for now.. no analytical, philosophical, vomit my life story entry.

(3 comments | comment on this)

Tuesday, May 6th, 2003
11:46 am
single again - i need to clear my head - i like it

(1 comment | comment on this)

Sunday, May 4th, 2003
2:25 pm
something's gotta give - no more dirty bars for me... bars yes just not dirty ones with dirty people.. i don't know what that means

(1 comment | comment on this)

Saturday, April 19th, 2003
11:36 pm
I feel like such a head case lately - emotions running wild.. i can't keep up with them.. the hard ones too, not happy little flower ones... blah, calling it a nite for now, still not done my damn assignments....

(1 comment | comment on this)

Sunday, April 6th, 2003
10:04 pm
what the fuck is wrong with me? i feel like an emotional mess lately.. stayed in bed all week-end.. crabby, mad, sad, everything.. i hate feeling like this... - had some really fucked up dreams last nite as well that didn't sit well with me all day today.. ronald, his ex.. they felt so real... anyway.. bed time and yes, mooooorrrrrrre homework

(2 comments | comment on this)

Saturday, March 22nd, 2003
1:03 pm - SOME PEOPLE ARE SO PATHETIC
Keep it pimping buddy, i like to drive 6 hours to get laid too, - pathetic

(1 comment | comment on this)

Thursday, March 20th, 2003
3:09 pm
ROLLINS KICKED ASS!! - FUCK THAT GUY IS HILLARIOUS!! - what a genius too... it was a good nite, thanx big D - love ya long time.

it's been a long,fucked up stressful week, i'm so tired and i ended up bawling again at gym guys wednesday morning over the ex.. so embarrassing, i know it will end soon, it's still very, very hard - i haven't felt like this in a long long time... it scares me, but it scared me more knowing that maybe down the road when we were really serious i would have to worry about his little fuck buddy coming in and out of the picture like she has been for the last 5 years...

it was either give it all or get out, and i chose the latter. - and thank god i did, 2 weeks after i left she was back in the picutre, and that's really what i wanted to know, if that hadn't had happened i might have been a little more upset, but when that happened i KNEW i made the right decision, that everything he told me about her not being in his life was bullshit... it's still hard, fucking hard - love doesn't come around too often ...

(3 comments | comment on this)

Sunday, March 16th, 2003
4:08 pm
BLAH - EMOTIONALLY DRAINED TODAY - FELT KINDA GOOD TO GREIVE IT ALL OUT... WELL SOME OF IT... IT TAKES TIME - ooops still in caps sorry - lost it yesterday when i found out ronald went trolliping back to his little bang buddy... i should have just left well enough alone, knowing that he was going to do that anyway, i don't know why i was so hurt - but no more... knowing that fact REALLY helps with the moving on process... - so embarrassing, i started crying this morning at gym guy's house out of the blue over ronald.. it hits me at the strangest times.. then i need to go into hermit mode for a bit... this is so hard...

********HENRY******ROLINS****************2 DAYS*************************

(comment on this)

Saturday, March 15th, 2003
10:27 am - sainthood ain't for me
So annoyed today.. just woke up in a freaking rage.. i'm turning the phone's off today and laying low... i love being a woman with hormones throwing me every which way...

took a long drive yesterday.. still thinking about everything... i go through such a range of emotion - sadness - anger - relief - depression - all to the extremes as well, none of them are felt lightly... i miss so many things but then i go over all the things that had happened and i think - WHAT THE FUCK WAS I THINKING? - i never would have put up with half the shit that i went through.. i went out with a guy for two years and dumped him for lying to me and never looked back....it was a big lie but still. i don't expect perfection in the least, but for god sakes.

I feel like the old me is back now... i feel so strong, - i know EXACTLY what sort of behaviour is acceptable and i will not settle... i thought feelings were enough to get through all the shit... - it still scares me how much i felt, but it's just not enough. - it's fucking hard though, - it helps having the AMAZING support that i've been given from gym boy - so patient and sweet.

well - time to start the homework, - maybe gym as well to burn off all this frustration.

***********I CAN'T BELIEVE DAN FREAKING QUIT STARTEK***************THAT SUX****************

(comment on this)

Tuesday, March 11th, 2003
8:49 pm
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO TIIIIIIIIIIIIIIRRRRRRRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEDDDDDDDDDDD!!!! PMS HAS GOT TO END ONE DAY!!! - BLLLLLAAAAAAAAH- WORKING OVERTIME TOMMOROW AND FRIDAY ALL DAY - 18$ AN HOUR BABY.. GIDDYUP - I'M IN HERMIT MODE... SOOOOO MOODY...

(comment on this)

Wednesday, March 5th, 2003
10:43 am - CAUGHT YOU IN THE TRUTH!!
I have been making some MAJOR decisions lately about what i want in relationships and life.. ONE thing i've decided that i will NOT tolerate at any cost, is lies... now i'm not talking about insignificant little white lies.. but larger ones.. ones that really say alot about the character and morales of the person... and that affect me directly or indirectly... oh and NEVER, NEVER date anyone with conflicting morals from your own.

i thought i caught someone in a lie regarding a certain female that i found they were talking to a few months ago... but as i listened to the story from the girl disclosing the information, everthing that she said was EXACTLLY what he had told me, WHILE it was happening... no he said this, she said that. - If there was indeed many indescrepancies that indicated a conspiracy - OUT THE DOOR...

Although this has not been an easy road, and i'm taking everything very, very slow - i know that i won't settle just because i may feel for a person, and that i have found so much inner strenght through all of this pain... -he's being VERY patient though... his actions speak as well as his words... and have been for about 6 months when there was nothing happening... and if it doesn't work out, i've found a phenomenal friend.

(2 comments | comment on this)

Tuesday, March 4th, 2003
11:08 pm
I LOVE YOU DAMIEN!!!! MARCH 18TH HENRY ROLLINS BABY!!!! WE ARE GETTING TRASHED!!!!!!!!!!

(1 comment | comment on this)

5:55 pm - satan's apple
so i says to the guy...

dozen pink roses sent to my work yesterday.. soooooo sweeeeeeeeeeeet -

- big storm coming tonite.. which = bucknasty is confined to "the wood" - garbage... oh well i've been in hermit mode for awhile.. needing alot of time by myself this last little while... ups and downs... - hard getting used to someone who actually puts in 100% effort, someone that you don't need to take 8 months to prove that you're "good enough" too, they just like you for the way you are.. strange concept.... - I'm not bashing... it's just different... i love it

(comment on this)

Sunday, March 2nd, 2003
12:20 pm
what a feeling to not have that aching, knawing feeling of drama always eating away at you... always looking over your shoulder... wondering when the other shoe's going to drop... - it's almost scary not having all that drama distracting you from other problems in your life.. when it's gone your left to deal with yourself...

- i'm drinking decaf and hating it.. oh well.. at least i won't feel sick all day, exhausted and become a mindless zombie... you care...

so i says to the guy...

(1 comment | comment on this)

Saturday, March 1st, 2003
11:56 am
WON'T TAKE THE BAIT

(comment on this)

11:46 am
easy nite last nite.. was a hermit and only left the house to see my grandparents.. i am a geek- tonite. low profile as well - mcbee gone and don't really feel like drinking.. fat from thursday still... - in case of fire, break the glass -

i am a bad, bad girl

(1 comment | comment on this)

Friday, February 28th, 2003
12:09 pm
last nite went out unexpectedly... it was fun though... didn't get too hammed, not even hung today... thank god...

Mcbee's last day down.... poop - mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm - pouty mood... -- i'm frustrated

(comment on this)

Thursday, February 27th, 2003
1:42 pm
today was hard.. first time i got up and was by myself since the ronald thing happened.. by bro's gone to shadow a chiropractor all day.. - been having really bad dreams these last few days.. violent.. last nite i was speared with a big metal pole from behind.. sherrie had something to do with it... hmmmmmmm - even though this is hard, i still believe it's what i had to do...

- i don't want ronald to hate me, but i'm not going to live my life avoiding pain and the adverse reactions of others.. very unpleasant, but like i said i have to do what's right for me.... - i guess it makes it easier knowing that he wants nothing to do with me, he was always like that and it really scared me, how he could just shut off in the blink of an eye, well that's his defense mechanism and i guess it's served him well this far... i believe that in true love you want what's best for the other person no matter what that may be... of course pain is ugly and angry feelings will come up. - i've been there.

-henry rollins ottawa - i'm there - i don't care if i'm going by myself... - homework day all day today.. blah... - girl told me she wanted to go down on me last nite at la maison... - haha, one day...

(comment on this)

> previous 20 entries
> top of page
LiveJournal.com